WordPress notifies me whenever I get a new follower or a like.  Usually, if I’m between doing things, I’ll check out who they are. And sometimes, I’ll come across stuff that reminds me of what I need to do, even when I’m emotionally taxed to the point where I don’t know whether to laugh or scream. Today was one of those days.

The first reminder came because me wandering around the sports pages of Yahoo! I came across an article about Kevin Durant. Now, I really wasn’t looking for it. I wanted to check on the San Jose Sharks progress in the Stanley Cup  and then on to the Mariners. Durant interested me because of the whole Seattle Supersonics becoming Oklahoma Thunder drama.  Anyway, part of Durant’s tattoo was a verse from the Bible. James I:2-4 to be exact:

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

I read that verse and I thought about a lot of things. Mainly, my writing, my life, and what I’m doing to seek balance. A lot of times, I feel like I’m faced with two choices: write or do computer stuff. I know I’ve ranted on this before here, so I won’t go into any details except it comes down to computers = money, writing = creative freedom and a truer sense of self. I need to dedicated myself to both to prefect my craft, but then I come across the quandary of where is enough time in the day to do so? So my test / challenge is to find that balance.

The second reminder came from a new follower, Michael Armstrong – Strong Blogs. He posted a list of 20 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Day. While there were quite a few that made me nod, the last one in particular jumped out at me. I know I’ve read at least once before, but today, it just really hit me between the eyeballs.

Your time is limited, don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living the result of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinion drowned your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
– Steve Jobs

All I can say is sometimes that greatest noise doesn’t come from other people, it comes from inside my own head and my interpretation of what people are thinking about me!

The final reminder came from the Human Business Works email that I receive on Thursday and Sunday:

My efforts in the area of productivity are not aimed just at being successful. The real goal of productivity, is to be present for what is important.

If I’m trying to sort through my emotions or thinking more about more than one project at once, then I’m not present. I’m distracted. And I guess that what’s bugs me about the balance between my writing and other stuff.  Programming is connecting the dots for the computer. With photography, a part of me shows through, but its the person and their emotions who I capture. Only with writing, do I have a true presence or reflection of myself. I hear my true self in every word I type, so it’s easier for me to connect with myself and my audience. I need to find a way to re-ignite that presence in everything I do while overcoming my fear of stepping on other people’s toes or worrying about what they are thinking about me.

So everyone who has given me reminder today, thank you! I needed it.